Posted by shadows721 on May 24, 2004, at 21:46:49
In reply to Re: Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, posted by Speaker on May 24, 2004, at 19:49:51
Thank you B2. That really means a lot to me.
Speaker,
I also have flashbacks. Sometimes, I get really depressed before one comes up. Many times, I am in bed and my ears sound like I am shocked with electricity and then I am back totally in the past. I touch, hear, and feel everything as it was in the past. Sometimes, I get major headaches or anxiety before one happens. These are the total recall of abuse flashbacks.
Then there are the just total recall of general things from childhood. They come up totally unexpected. I see a child on a bike and then I see myself riding on my bike. I see the basket on my bike with the daisies on it. I see the sandles and my shorts. Then I am back here again. It's happens in a split second type of thing. I have been told that I talk like a child at times too. I hear different voices in my head from the dissociation. It's odd things that I am not even thinking about.
Then there are the nightmares with tidal waves, storms, guns going off, haunted houses, trying to hide to name a few.
I isolate a lot, because number one I don't feel well. It's trying being on guard always. I just can't hardly stand for someone to stand behind me in a line in a store. It's from my abuse. I have to keep my distance, but when you move up in the line they get closer too. I am trying to let that go, but it's difficult.
Since, I have so many triggers, it is unpredicatble how I will react. Thunder and lightning are almost a form of torture to my nervous system. I can't help but jump everytime I see lightning.
poster:shadows721
thread:350140
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20040522/msgs/350276.html