Posted by crushedout on May 10, 2004, at 19:36:24
In reply to I cancelled therapy tomorrow, posted by crushedout on May 10, 2004, at 18:29:07
Oops, Racer, maybe I wasn't clear in my posts. I only cancelled *one* session, not quit forever and ever. I will see her on Thursday. But for me, cancelling one session may be a real sign of progress, because I proved to myself that (a) I can delay gratification, (b) I can live without her for an entire week even when I'm not under extreme duress (i.e., out of town because a family member has died or forced to miss because my T's on vacation, for example), and (c) life is still going on even though I'm not seeing her tomorrow.It's kind of a relief to realize all those things. Also, I think it surprised the heck out of her. But that's my manipulative side talking ("keep quiet, manipulative side, you're embarrassing me!").
Anyway, your experience sounds really hard, and it sounds like you should definitely listen to your own rational side there, telling you it's ridiculous to consider *yourself* a failure if you leave this clinic. But what do I know?
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