Posted by tinydancer on May 3, 2004, at 10:57:41
In reply to Re: Update from appointment today, posted by joslynn on May 3, 2004, at 10:36:03
It is sad. It is an incredible struggle to live through this and know that you belong and that you are on this planet for a reason. I often find it hard to believe no one has any clue. I just think people are often afraid to get involved, afraid of doing something that could affect them negatively in a social manner, or start something that is too big for them to handle. Plus there is always the fear of mistaking abuse for something else. When I turned 14 I started expressing my pain more outwardly-before that it was very inwardly based. My behavior screamed I hate you-I had tattoos and piercings and wore huge knee high boots with scary ripped t-shirts, mohawk in my hair-trying to fight back somehow through the pain by being so tough nothing could possibly hurt me. Inside I was the most petal soft, brokenhearted young woman hoping someone could come along and save me, understand me, see through all this somehow. But mostly I was in too much pain to see even that, I just needed to get through every day. One of my first admissions to the hospital for drug/alcohol problems, everyone there said, "It is so obvious that girl is in trouble! What took everyone so long to figure it out?" I don't know why either. These days so much more is known then was at that time, even though it is only a bit over a decade ago. I am just grateful that the psychology community has come as far as it has and that the common person knows what to look for more than they did 10 years ago. Hope awareness will continue to rise, that's all we can hope for.
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