Posted by deirdrehbrt on April 12, 2004, at 22:36:16
In reply to Re: I'm sorry, Shadows. :( » shadows721, posted by Dinah on April 12, 2004, at 20:55:54
Hi everyone.
Fallsfall just told me this thread was going on, and I thought I would come over and check it out.
I'm especially interested because I also have DID/MPD. My heart goes out to all of you with legal problems, problems convincing T's, problems with families, etc.
In my case, the one person in my life that needed the most convincing was me. It took alot of waking up to things that had been going on that most other people would never have happen to them. It needed to be pointed out to me that most other people don't have people call them by other names; that most people don't have over a dozen distinct handwritings; that most people don't find things they didn't write in their journals; that most people don't have money dissappearing from their checking account and wind up with things they didn't buy sitting in their homes.
The pieces of 'evidence' that tipped the scales were evidence of severe injuries I suffered as a child. My parents know nothing, or so they say, about them. There were also a number of incidents with friends, things in my journals that couldn't be explained by other means.
As near as I can tell, there are 29 people in my mind. I haven't met half of them. Some of them have been scary at first. It's never fun to find out that you have no idea of who you are, what happened to you as a child, that things that you thought you understood in your past were really quite different from the way you believed.
I still sometimes have doubts about having DID, but when I do, all I need to do is talk to my daughter, and she'll leave no doubt.
It's hard on people around you. It's frightening to those who might have hurt you or let it happen. It is tough to learn that people who you needed to trust could have done unthinkable things to you when you were most vulnerable.
I guess that the best thing though is knowing that things can get better. There is hope. I'm looking for that hope.
Thanks for starting this thread.
Dee.
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