Posted by platinumbride on April 9, 2004, at 1:04:42
To those of you who gave me so much good and heartfelt advice (esp fallsfall and spoc) THANK YOU AGAIN! I am not sure that I would have been able to address this at all if you all had not lent me your support.
(I had posted about being dissatisfied with the talk therapy I have been having. God, I am still so nervous!!!) The post was on 3/30 as part of racer's thinking about quitting therapy)
(btw: racer, I am sorry i just jumped in on your thread...bad judgement call on my part...really, I did it all in the wrong way)
I kind of feel awful because I know that I didn't give him all of the respect he is due, because I stated my feelings on his voice mail, but it was the only way I could get the ball rolling...and I just HAD to at least begin a dialogue about seeing him only for the purpose of meds. Since he is 50 miles away and I have no car, it would have been at least another week before I could see him, and I was afraid I would chicken out. I am not proud that I had to leave a message at 1 in the morning rather than talking to him face to face, but I will just have to learn to live with that, I guess.
(HOLY RUN ON SENTENCE!)
I'm pretty scared that he will just leave me kind of high and dry...almost as if he would spite me...dumb, because he has only shown me great kindness...
I don't want the relationship to end entirely, but I kind of think i just might owe it to myself to try to get talk therapy with someone who might be able to give me more of what I need...I wish I werent; being such a freak about this: all I want is to change the nature of a professional relationship, and I am acting like I am breaking up with a boyfriend who really needs me!!!
Anyway, I can't keep things straight in my head here, so I guess I better just stop typing ;-)
I really appreciate this forum. Thanks for listening....
Diane
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thread:334382
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