Posted by Karen_kay on March 31, 2004, at 8:24:50
In reply to Re: I cried today » Karen_kay, posted by All Done on March 31, 2004, at 1:04:10
But, I honestly feel that I am taking care of myself when I'm helping others. Perhaps that nurturing cancer trait? I know that I've felt so much better since posting at babble, but at the same time, I also feel that when the board goes through it's mood shift, I too start to feel down. If I don't feel I'm doing enough to help people, I beat myself up. I don't look at it like "Well, I've helped him or her" it's more like "You didn't help him or her"....
It's raining here again! Can you believe it? Perhaps the weather knows my mood? I just think that I don't have limits in my own capabilities. I KNOW I can help everyone in one way or another. And I didn't in that case. And it hurts. I need to find a way to convince myself that I did. Perhaps by almost crying when I told them I didn't have any money (and my friends said "You don't have to tell them you don't have any money, jsut keep walking" How rude is that??) let them know that I wanted to help but couldn't? Maybe I'll just call Bubba or wait it out a few more days.. Or resolve to make a difference? First woman president to end world hunger? How's that sound? I do rather like the ring to that :)
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