Posted by Pandabear on March 30, 2004, at 21:42:57
Alrighty, Well, my therapists both said that they feel that I am bipolar. I dont agree. Yet, I see the same signs that they are seeing. Howcome I cannot agree with them? I think I am scared. My therapist told me i have 2 options..one is to go to a support group for people that are bipolar and the other is to get a second opinion. I chose the second opinion. Why would i go to a support group for something that I feel I dont have?? Anyway, Im going to get a second opinion but how to I go about doing this. If I tell her my symptoms..which IM not even having very much anymore except for the depression...then of course she is going to say im bipolar. WHY CAN I NOT BELIEVE my therapists to begin with! I know that if I can be convinced that I am bipolar, I will be fine with going back on my seroquel and taking my medicine for the rest of my life..but until then, im not going to be putting something into my body that I feel I dont need. I think deep down, I do agree that Im bipolar but it is hard to fathom since EVERYONE that knows me and that i have talked to ..family included does NOT think that im bipolar.......this is so frustrating. AND to top it off...the told me to get a second opinion from a psychiatrist, yet I called a regular therapist..MSW to get an appt. and I dont think that they will be too thrilled. BUT, i look at it like this...Im going to cont. going to my psychiatrist..i dont need any advice on my medications...I just need an opinion on wether or not im bipolar..and the person im going to go to specializes in mood disorders..so it should NOT be a problem...hopefully they will be ok with my decision...Anyway, I have never gotten a second opinion and I dont know..can they tell just by talking to you if you are bipolar? Will she be asking me all the questions and be able to tell from my answers or should I be doing most of the talking. Its funny to me that ive been in therapy for almost 3 years and I dont know how this works...but IM so frustrated and confused...I just want to do whats right and yet, i dont know what is right..I dont know who to trust anymore and I feel so alone right now. I feel that my therapists are getting so frustrated with me ...hopefully im wrong... ahhhh...on a good note..my mom did tell me last night that she is proud of me and that Im doing well...(we dont get along so this is big)...but, at the same time she doesnt see the frustration that im going through and I can mask my depression from her..so oh well. I feel so alone...
poster:Pandabear
thread:330550
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