Posted by toomuchpain on March 29, 2004, at 14:19:38
In reply to Thinking of U and sending good wishes for Monday (nm), posted by pegasus on March 28, 2004, at 23:00:13
well it is 315pm eastren st time and i have just came home from my meeting ....
i had to speak in front of sevreal ppl and exlain the emotatinal state i was in and that i am in .. they evaulted me and my ex t .... he had to stand there and explain everything he did and reasons behind his actions ...
i had too sit in a waiting romm while the board memebrs discussed what was right and what was wrong and if ther were any crossing bouondrys .. that lasted for like a hour and half ... my ex t went to eat with a co worker that was there with him the whole .. he asked me to grab a bite to eat i told him no !!!!
when they came to there conclsion they came back to the room with papers and tape recoder and they said that there were boundrys crossed and that my former t had no reasonable explanition for anything he has done to me .. that it was all out of my hands that he should have been more professioal and he let too much of his personal feelings into my therpy and my discharge ... as of my t now .. i will no longer be seeing her and they are giving me a new t somone who dont know what has happen to me or dont know my former t that i just went through all this with ..
My former t has been suspened fromt he job intill futher notice and i was told that i will be notified when he does return and i was told that i should have no contact with him at all .. if he would comtact me to contact the board asap and report for they can futher actions ....
now that all of the meetings are over... and i can move on from this ... i guess it really stinks that it ook me all this pain and agnoy to prove to myself and others that therapist can affect u more then anyone can know and that this when u r been volited by someone .. u need to speak up and i also found out that he alot of things that went on in my therpy were not what they were supposed to be ...
so now that all this is over where do i go ??
how do i trust ??
how do i forgive myself for doing this to him ?
does the pain sunside when closure actually happens?
does my ex t hate me because of this ??
will i ever be me again?
questions that are running around in this head of mine .....
poster:toomuchpain
thread:327700
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