Posted by crushedout on March 25, 2004, at 23:41:22
In reply to Re: crash after a great week » terrics, posted by crushedout on March 22, 2004, at 8:01:59
Well, I saw my T three times again this week. On Monday when I went in we talked about my crash and I told her that I thought she must have been mad at me because I experienced her as hostile and contemptuous. She said she hadn't been mad at all and can't remember ever feeling contempt for me. I told her about how her email helped and especially the support I got from you guys here. And I tried to explain my confusion from this thread to her (although I didn't show her the posts, even though I'd printed them out -- I chickened out -- besides, they were too long).
Anyway, she said that I definitely wasn't "too needy," that I was as needy as I was, but that there would be times she wouldn't be able to fill my needs. I explained that the problem for me was that I was always fretting over how much I dare ask for because I don't want to make her mad at me the way she was that weekend I called her during a crisis. Not only because I don't want her to be mad at me (which of course I don't) but also because then *I* suffered because she would meet even *fewer* of my needs the way she did the week after that phone call.
She definitely seemed to realize the difficulty of the situation I'm in, of being very scared to ask for things and not knowing where the line is, but we haven't figured out how to resolve this problem yet.
I'm still pretty confused but I'm glad she sees the bind I'm in.
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