Posted by DaisyM on March 18, 2004, at 23:03:40
In reply to crash after a great week, posted by crushedout on March 18, 2004, at 18:35:52
>>>It's not so much all that but I guess I blame her for my being depressed a lot and she feels that. And I want her to fix it, and she feels that, too. And it's a lot of pressure for her, which makes her angry at me.
<<<Has she told you she is angy at you? Or, has she complained about the pressure? If she hasn't said so directly, my guess is this is YOUR fear -- that you are causing her stress and worry that results in anger.
This is my totally my problem too -- not that I worry that my Therapist will get angry but that he will just eventually "have enough!" and be done. I can imagine how you are talking to her in your head, apologizing for being such a pain-in-the..., yelling at her for opening you up to the pain again, feeling like a little kid for needing someone else to make it all better.
You said it yourself -- You can't wait until Monday. So your options are: call or email. I'd call, it is quicker. but sometimes email can allow a real clarification of your thoughts. If you email, do it soon, so she can get it and respond. I think telling her what you told us is critical. Maybe she was having a bad day. And maybe she is angry with you, though I really doubt it. But you need to talk about what you are feeling, otherwise you can't get it out of the way of the issues you need to work on.
You can need her and she won't get mad. She is a professional and it is what you are paying her for. She is YOUR therapist...let her help you. She may even be shocked at how you took today.
You will feel better if you call. I always apologize for calling, for bothering my Therapist. He always tells me he is glad I called...that I reached out. I've even called and said, "I'm upset. I'm not sure why but yesterday's session was upsetting and I don't want to go through the weekend like this." He has always been able to help me feel better until we can sort it out together.
Trust your Therapist to do this for you.
Call. I know it is hard. Call anyway.
Let us know how you are.
Daisy.
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