Posted by Karen_kay on February 22, 2004, at 12:49:46
In reply to Re: Yuck.. what a horrid few days » Karen_kay, posted by terrics on February 22, 2004, at 9:27:05
Hey all! Have I told everyone here how truly wonderful each and every person is? If I haven't then I've just been wrapped up in some other things and I'm sorry. But, you are all truly wonderful and gifted....
I've just been thinking recently and I've had sort of a moment of enlightenment. Hopefully, it stays with me until I die.I just realized that it doesn't matter if I go to group. It's not really that important. My life is beautiful, and things always seem to turn out great for me. (Please don't confuse this message with sarcasm, as I'm being honest and crying as I type.)
I don't really have a choice in the matter. I can go to group, or start individual therapy with a new therapist. Those are my options. And, Bubba's taught me so much that I think I'll take my chances with group. Maybe after group, I'll be done with therapy (as I believe that's the ultimate goal, to send individuals to group who are ready to leave.)
I've learned enough from Bubba, and myself, that even if after group my therapy is done, that's fine with me. I have the knowledge to challenge my negative thoughts. I know how to "double check" my actions and motivations.
I don't feel it's important to continue this quest I have for all of the imformation regarding my father. What's in the past should stay there. So, I have still some resiliant memory problems. Then I'll have to work harder. Or use it to my advantage.
If after group I still need therapy, I'll work that out. I'd like to stay with Bubba, but that may not be a possibility. But, I've learned enough for a lifetime through my experiences with Bubba. And I can continue to learn on my own. I'll be sad to leave and discontinue therapy, but I've learned so much, why not give someone else my timeslot so they can learn as well.
Sorry if this sounds confusing, but I am confident that things will happen. And the most important thing is how I choose to deal with that situation.
My life is very positive and I try to stay that way. I've had to make decisions before and will have to in the future that may change my life forever. I'm confident that no matter what happens, it will turn out great. I'll make it great! I seem to have a knack for that, you know!
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