Posted by Karen_kay on February 20, 2004, at 13:49:09
Last night I had sort of a "wake up call" to start dealing with my problems. More of a hit in the head, but anyway. So, I decided it's time for me to really start improving and thinking about the things I need to thnk about. Yahoo for me, right?
WRONG! This morning I was awakened with a call from my therapist. The conversation went something like this:
Him: How are you?
Me: Tired.
Him: Did I wake you?
Me: Yes, you did.
Him: Sorry, I wasn't sure what time you had classes.PAUSE
Him: So, I'm working on getting my group together and wanted to know what the best time would be for you. Is Tuesdays at 9 am ok? (my regualr session time is Tuesday at 8)
PREGNANT PAUSE
Me: Ummmm, yeah.
Him: I'm really excited about this. You'll do fine, ect. This is a way to keep you as a client. (Then he told me the ages of the group members and they are in our age range, even worse IMO)
Me: Ok
Him: Great. Sorry about waking you. Have a nice day.Now folks, I was asleep. I think the hit to my head helped me sleep in a bit? So, I started thinking over coffee about the conversation. And I realized, I'm moving to group. I don't really have much of a say, unless I want to change therapists.
So, of course, I called him. And we talked for 30 minutes. About my hit to the head and group. He thinks that I should have a positive attitude, but basically told me how I can "get out of it" and return to regular individual sessions. This isn't his call. And he said several times, "This is a way to keep you as a client." He didn't phrase it, "This is the best thing for you," or "This will help you improve," or even "This is a way for you to keep me as a therapist." It was phrased as though he was putting me in group so that he could keep me. Maybe I'm looking too much into this? And I'm not looking forward to Group, which also starts on our anniversery.. Darn the luck.. So, I have 4 sessions (me thinks) left with him as an individual, then I move to group. This is Bull shit! And it's not in my best interest, is it? I can hardly talk to him about things, I even hide my depression from him. How can I EVER talk about those things with a bunch of people sitting around trying to give me advice? And, to boot, I'm not getting "MY TIME." And I have to listen to people gripe and moan about how much their lives suck. I'll try it, do what he said to get back to individual (basically faking depression, ect.). But, I can't do that often, a his supervisor will catch on. I also got his supervisor's name.
Oh, there's a war brewing!!!!
poster:Karen_kay
thread:316090
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