Posted by Pandabear on February 18, 2004, at 22:06:08
In reply to Re: Why do they do this to me? » Crooked Heart, posted by mair on February 18, 2004, at 21:48:38
Having both my therapist and psychiatrist working in the same office is annoying..because you are right..it is annoying that they are in constant communication about me and yet I am not in on it. I know they are having to be guarded with me because I worry a lot but I really dont appreciate it. I dont want to switch because they are pretty much the best office in town and I like them a lot...My psychiatrist started me on seroquel last tuesday and I have decided not to use it because first off I dont like the way it makes me feel ....she has me using it for sleep and obsessing and I dont need help sleeping...Second, I have heard too many bad things about the long term effects of seroquel and im too chicken to try it...but I dont think she will be pleased if I stop it...so im going to call her tomorrow and inform her that i didnt take it tonight...im taking lamictal and that should be helping my anxiety soooo really i dont need the seroquel...at least this is how I feel...oh well. Im so nervous that because of my obsessing ..they are going to want to hospitalize me...I resorted to writing her a letter instead of calling her and so that is good..but writing a letter is still trying to get in touch with her. The more of a boundary I have ..the more obsessed im going to get...*and I told her that in my letter...but I dont want her to think I need to be hospitalized. The first time before therapy that I was so obsessive was when I was obsessed and dependent on my "friend" and he set a boundary on me calling and talking to him and I became VERY OBSESSIVE and during that time..she could have hospitalized me if I was in therapy then ..but I wasnt. When I told her about this, she agreed that she could have...but to think about where I was now and that I had moved on...This is true but NOW im regressing and now because there is a boundary against me Im doing the same thing that I was doing with my friend..and Im becoming obsessive again and soooo if im not careful, she could hospitalize me..or would she? I dont know. But..I still dont think the seroquel can help me...all it is doing is putting me to sleep at night..and IF im not ready to go to sleep and i stay up fighting it..i get really sick to my stomach and so sick that I cant stand up anymore and have to lay down...I just dont like it. I hope she is ok with me stopping it. She put me on it because of my anxiety but also because I had been taking tylonol pm for 4 days and she didnt want me to become addicted to it...PERSONALLY I would rather take tylonol pm....but thats just me. I dont know what to do right now...im soooooooooooooofrustrated..please think about me this next monday..im meeting with my therapist to discuss my letter to her....its not going to be fun at all...:(
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