Posted by crushedout on February 16, 2004, at 10:01:23
I had a horrible fight with my mother on Saturday in which she called me terrible things and we decided to have a "divorce" (can you believe it? it was her idea). I was very shaken up by it and I called my T immediately. I left her a voice message explaining what happened briefly and asking if it would be possible to check in for a few minutes on the phone. I apologized for calling on the weekend and said I understood if she couldn't.Anyway, she didn't call me back. I got an email on Sunday afternoon saying that she wouldn't be able to call me, but that I could call her today (Monday) if I still needed to.
I felt really hurt by this, even though I said I would understand if she couldn't. I guess I was lying, huh? I don't really understand how she can't take five minutes out of her weekend to help me in such a crisis. I feel abandoned. I feel really sad.
I wonder if this is an arbitrary boundary she's imposing because she's trying to have good boundaries with me, or if she just generally doesn't interrupt weekends for clients, or if she was actually that busy. I guess maybe I should ask her. But this is going to be hard to talk about because I feel so vulnerable and stupid for caring so much about someone who obviously doesn't care about me nearly as much as I want her to.
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thread:314017
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