Posted by Karen_kay on February 11, 2004, at 14:36:50
In reply to Love and fireworks (and embarrassment), posted by crushedout on February 11, 2004, at 0:10:15
Hi crushed! Maybe things will be better now that everything is out in the open. It's tough to say. But, I understand what you mean by being embarrassed to admit to wanting to hold your therapist. I once had a dream and I was explaining it to my therapist and in my dream I ran to him and held him. It took all of my courage to admit that I held him. Why is that so hard to admit? Maybe it's because holding someone is so intimate? And so very intense in that it means you really want to take care of that person. You want all of their troubles to disappear. You care for that person. (Not necessarily true in your case, but, I don't think my therapist really cares for me. So, it's kinda hard to admit that you care for someone who doesn't care back. And I don't mean I love him or anything, just that I care.
I'm sure your session was very intense and overwhelming. But, try hard not to focus on "catching" your therapist. Try instead to focus on how to get past these feelings. I you focus on catching her, you will probably end up getting hrut. Actually, you will get hurt. Whether you catch her or not.
Maybe you could research archived posts about people who have had similar experiences and check out the results. I'm sure that would be a great help. I wish I had all the answers. I wish someone did! I wish I knew that person! I wish too much, I think!
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