Posted by Pandabear on February 1, 2004, at 15:26:32
I have been in therapy for a while and doing really well, yet I find myself becoming confused when my therapist is asking me a question about a certain issue...this is really hard for me to explain over the internet but, it isnt like she is using big words or anything but I get to where I have to ask her to repeat herself or..I just stare at her confused until she re phrases into simpler terms. It makes me feel so dumb that I cannot understand her and Im sure she gets frustrated that she has to rephrase everything that she asks me...im really not that out of it..but, I just get SO CONFUSED. I was doing a CBT worksheet a few weeks ago and I had to change a negative statement into something positive but first I had to read the statement and figure out what was wrong with what was being said before I changed it. This was totally difficult for me because I am a negative thinker..but it made me feel completely stupid that I couldnt realize why the statement was wrong...It was all stuff that I would have said...:(Why do therapist have the ability to make you feel so bad about yourself? I know she is only trying to help me and I keep that in my mind..but I feel so small compared to her...and so confused. I guess im finding out how confused I really am and it really hurts me. I can tell she is frustrated at me at times that I will not go out and get involved but I have stopped doing that because of my confusion and fear of rejection...(I have been rejected too many times) But now..im starting to feel like a hermit!!! :( Yet, I like being by myself...I am truly happy by myself..but that doesnt look to great to others...I should have more friends and more things to do in my life yet im too scared to do ANYTHING. Im too young to be feeling this way...why am I so scared.
poster:Pandabear
thread:308185
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20040131/msgs/308185.html