Posted by Karen_kay on December 18, 2003, at 11:36:12
In reply to Re: Feeling during therapy » Karen_kay, posted by Penny on December 18, 2003, at 9:43:47
Something is just plain wrong with me. :( Ok, I've been seeing him for almost a year (a year in February). And it is his fault that I've remembered things about my father. Before I started seeing him, I had a perfect relationship with my father. (His words, not mine). I mean I don't hold a grudge towards him.
But, as in emotions, I don't FEEL them. When I get upset I shake. But I don't FEEL anything. I'm not sad. And in therapy I don't feel sad. And when I remember things I can't sleep or eat, so I know it affects me, but I don't actually FEEL it. You know what I'm saying. I'm like a man (he he), I'm not in touch with my emotions. And I find it a bit insulting that he's more in touch with his emotions than I am. And that he is more alarmed by what I tell him during sessions than I am. Hell, I've lived it. And, I'm sure it has alot to do with PTSD and just building up a wall so I don't get hurt again. But, how can I start to feel things again?
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