Posted by Dinah on December 9, 2003, at 1:56:29
In reply to I Babbled, posted by DaisyM on December 8, 2003, at 20:30:19
> I thought I had dealt with and put away many of these "needy" feelings -- could they be emerging as anxious now?
It has been my own experience that when I "put away" any of my feelings, they frequently emerge as anxiety. So that as I got more in touch with my feeling self, I had a reduction in symptoms of my OCD. Or perhaps as I gained control over my OCD, my feelings emerged. Something like that. :)
Even now, when I'm in rational get things done (would that be ANP?) mode, I get far more anxiety than I do when I'm actually feeling my emotions.
But maybe that's just me...
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> It was a painful session -- trying to give a voice to this sufficating anxiety that is free-floating again. I kept looking at my watch and he kept saying, "we have time, stay with it." He suggested next time he would help me "find these feelings, sink into them and identify what is behind them." He promised to be there with me. Why am I so terrified?
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> My homework is to answer the question of what could possible happen by allowing myself to completely feel these feelings? Answer: the "me" that is still "me" gets swallowed up or breaks apart...What if I'm not brave enough? :(
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>It sounds as if you're in good hands. :) But it is scary to be open with yourself, and even more so to let someone else in. Does it sound odd to say you can honor that fear while still weighing the pros and cons of setting it aside? What are the potential benefits of doing what your therapist asks? What safety does your fear provide?
I'm afraid I allow myself the safety of my fears too often. It's hard for me not to do that.
poster:Dinah
thread:287845
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