Posted by DaisyM on December 7, 2003, at 17:45:19
In reply to So what do I do now?, posted by fallsfall on December 7, 2003, at 14:32:00
I don't have a ton of experience with Therapy BUT...issues? I have plenty!
Here is what I **know** - writing uses another part of the brain so what you write (prior to editing) is usually a fairly true reflection of your feelings. Especially if you are just "talking" to yourself. So trust it. The books, etc. just give you a different vocabulary to express yourself with. Things wouldn't stick with you if they didn't resonate somehow.
I have also recently learned that it is a form of resistance to question the value of your feelings -- am I just doing this for the "attention?" type of thinking. The question would be "so what if you are?" If this has been something you have been dwelling on, it is important. It doesn't have to have global ramifications to be "important". Think about a pebble in a pond and resulting waves. This issue might be (probably is from what you have written) your pebble that continues to touch everything else.
I can feel the pain in your post and the uncertainty. It is very, very hard to not feel real -- I keep describing it like watching yourself get smaller and smaller...
You told me that these things take time, to trust your Therapist to keep you safe and to let things out slowly. It was very good advice. Listen to your own wisdom, here and last night. Take care of yourself. Keep your appointment tomorrow.
-D
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