Posted by Camille Dumont on November 17, 2003, at 23:08:48
I think the meds are not working or are in the process of stopping event though I've been ok for about a year.
I feel depressed
I cry for no reason
I feel dissociated ... find myself surfing very bad websites (ash and the likes)
I feel in control right now ... at least enough to not do anything stupid right nowAnd yet, I wonder wether I should go see a doctor.
I mean if I do attempt something, I don't care but if I decide to try and help myself
then I have to ponder the "after" part ... if I am to live I can't afford to be locked
up in some hospital ... I am rather alone and not having my job would be a problem.
I would also most likely be kicked from my masters program.So its like a dumb circle
Help myself and risk losing my two main reasons for living
Or not do anything and hope for the better ...I just don't know what to do...
poster:Camille Dumont
thread:280727
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20031114/msgs/280727.html