Posted by rhonda1 on October 31, 2003, at 15:55:02
Hi, I'm new and I suffer from Dysthymia and depression over top. I'm frustrated, very frustrated, I'm sitting at my desk finding it so difficult to do my work because all I can do is notice the extreme difficulty I'm having to motivate myself. I live in a fairly remote community where I've sought regular counseling and psychiatry where mostly i've been trying to find that combination of medication that would bring back that dedication, ENERGY, intelligence and memory that i once had (i lost it in grade eight, you remember something so well when you've lost it). I was finally diagnosed with a "learning disorder due to stress" just so i could make it through university without flunking. Now, i'm on 200 of Wellbutrin and 300 of Effexor. It's given me social courages but I would trade it for dedication, energy and memory in an instant. I'm still exhausted, I can't remember names or it's because I don't care like I used to, I'll read a page of a book and as soon as I turn the page, it's vanished from my mind.
Either I have to accept the fact I won't be an honors student again or fight for the right to access to the tools and specialists that can help me.my counselor is a wall, I don't get any relief, just more frustrated by talking to her. unfortunately, she's one of only a handful of counselors in town. the overlying depression was to have faded by now, but it's still there, I believe the restrictions of my town is a large factor so I've decided to make the leap and move to a larger city, but with the major concern of coverage to continue my search for a motivated life again. I feel like I work 24/7.
I'm asking if there is someone else who feels that even with all their medication, the important demons stay strong and what have you done so far?
poster:rhonda1
thread:275331
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