Posted by HannahW on October 9, 2003, at 21:47:45
My therapy has turned toward the torment I endured at the hands of my 5th grade "friends." I was spat on, ridiculed for my developing body and acne, kicked, and tormented in any other way that a 10-year-old mind could think of. I used to cry and beg for forgiveness for whatever "sin" I had committed; and I also would cry and say "Leave me alone!" which the other kids would mock. Can you imagine 20 kids saying, "Leave me alone!" in their whiniest voices? It was a terrible year for me.
Were you bullied? What did you do about it? Does it affect you now?
My therapist talked about Dr. Phil's "10 Defining Moments" and how this was one of them. I don't watch Dr. Phil because I'm at work, but apparently people set "rules" for themselves at these defining moments. The rule I set for myself (I'm just now realizing) is that No One Will Ever Ridicule My Emotions Again. That's why I don't show my emotions to anyone but the most intimate of friends.
I don't know that I really have any question, but I'm sharing my experience, and I'm interested in hearing anyone else's.
Hannah
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