Posted by Sabina on October 8, 2003, at 0:35:20
In reply to self-harm ... well sort of, posted by Camille Dumont on October 4, 2003, at 22:32:48
i did this for many years, to a greater or lesser extent, with my fingers (and sometimes my feet). last year, my husband told me that it was disgusting. i stopped immediately, and haven't done it since. what confuses me is that i've taken up nothing to replace it. i often wonder where and how in the world a decades long unconscious habit could disappear to? part of me is afraid that i've internalized the shame i felt from his rebuke and it's still in there somewhere, contributing to my general level of self hatred. he has also told me that he would be more attracted to me if i weighed less. i'm not even that overweight, but it's nearly killed my sense of self worth. i hate i gave him that power over me. hopefully, i will be able to deal with this in therapy.
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