Posted by fallsfall on September 13, 2003, at 22:59:23
In reply to Self-hate attacks.., posted by Tabitha on September 13, 2003, at 19:27:59
I think it's natural (or I'm unnatural, too). I have just started volunteering again, getting out in the world, accomplishing something. I spent my last therapy session moaning and groaning and complaining about everything. After I left I figured out that what I was saying was "Well, I may have made some progress, but don't be fooled into thinking that I'm better! I still have all these problems to solve". The last couple of days I haven't been able to accomplish anything (well, the naps were good). This sounds a lot like what you are describing - I take steps of independence and then revert even farther back into dependence. I'm going to keep volunteering, even if I don't get anything done at home. I think that the help that volunteering gives to my self-esteem will be enough to get me back to where I was at home.
Frustrating, though, isn't it?
P.S. The alcohol solution doesn't seem to be the best one... I'm glad you resist that.
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