Posted by HannahW on September 13, 2003, at 22:34:10
I haven't been hanging around this board very long, but I just have to tell everyone how tremendously helpful you've been to me. Dinah and Pfinstegg, I pay close attention to what you have to say because it's invariably wise and you speak with the voice of mature experience. I have ordered my copy of In Session and I can't WAIT to get it. Judy, your straightforwardness has caused me to take my head out of my screwed-up arse and take a fresh healing breath of reality. I think I'll be able to work with my therapist, after all, and in a much healthier way. Adia, your vulnerability and courage has encouraged me to try to emulate your efforts to take a risk and actually FEEL with my therapist. Very scary! And Allison, we haven't communicated much, but from reading your posts, I think we must be twins separated at birth. It comforts me to know that there's someone out there that I can really relate to. (We should compare notes on digging up information about our therapists--I confess I've dug up a shameful amount!) :P Thank you everyone else for sharing so openly and lending to the spirit of this board. It's honestly amazing how much everyone's experiences have aided me on my own journey. I've never been in group therapy, but this is what I imagine that the best groups are like.
Thanks to the progress I've made because of all of you, my next session should be a significant breakthrough for me and my therapist. I plan to talk to her about my feelings that she rejected me, how my instict was to run away and find a new therapist, and how I came to realize that now she and I are in the perfect situation to work through my sensitivity to rejection. She and I have been talking about how I "close the door" on people who hurt me, and now I see that I have closed the door on her. That's why I have felt so flat and distant in my last couple of sessions. Together, we'll be able to work on figuring out how to open that door so I can SHOW my emotions instead of just talking about them intellectually. My reluctance to make myself vulnerable to someone by showing them my emotions holds me back in all of my relationships, so conquering this demon will be tremendously significant in my life.
Here's to progress for all of us...
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