Posted by Pfinstegg on August 15, 2003, at 23:46:13
In reply to Re: also in love with therapist » Pfinstegg, posted by stebby on August 14, 2003, at 12:37:52
I admit I was slightly offended by being asked why I was coming to the board, but I'm not any longer.
It's really impossible to compare anyone's situation with anyone else's. I know my situation sounds awful, but I don't really consider it a tragedy, as later life has been much better in terms of family, work, etc.-except for my severe inner doubts about myself and the on-going depression and anxiety, which has always caused me a lot of difficulty. The chance to go into my early experiences, deeply, with my analyst, has really started to lessen the pain I have always felt because of them.
I can understand your situation, as I, too, have a doctorate and had to struggle hard for tenure. It must be really hard when you have children to raise and are the sole bread-winner- I haven't been in that situation, but am assuming it at least doubles the amount of pressure. I know I feel pulled in so many directions at once, and never feel that I'm doing anything really well.
It sounds as though you are developing a good working relationship with your therapist- that may be deepening and becoming more meaningful and useful to you as you talk about the transference in all its forms. There always would be the possibility of analysis if you wanted to go into things more deeply still. Our insurance pays for a standard number of visits per year, as it's considered the same as psychotherapy. Of course, it doesn't nearly cover a year of visits!
I am just at the beginning of my analytic journey, and I think I'm the only one here to have chosen a psychoanalyst. I don't know how it's all going to turn out, but I'd be glad to let anyone know who has any interest in it as things go along.
The very best to you!
Pfinstegg
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