Posted by Morgen on July 24, 2003, at 22:14:48
In reply to Re: No no, I didn't send it. » Morgen, posted by Dinah on July 24, 2003, at 21:18:25
Apparently she was okay with one angry e-mail, but not with two. I sent her a second e-mail along the lines of one of the posts I made here, about how it was really dissapointing to me to hear her accept blame because I was secretly hoping she had some sort of magical plan she hadn't let me in on, and really wasn't failing me at all.
Actually, my second email wasn't really very angry at all, just sad and dissapointed (and therefore, I admit, blameful, but to a lesser degree) and upset. But clearly, it was too much.
I got this very formal email, that from here on out I'm to only use email for scheduling issues as it has become a source of misunderstanding. Now, I know I am really just hurt, but that makes me so angry! She writes two-liner responses to my emails (at the most!), which is fine, I'm really just writing to vent and feel heard and I've never expected a lengthy reply from her, but I certainly don't think I've misunderstood anything in them. This is why I think her reason is stupid and dishonest -- really, she just doesn't want to deal with my emails anymore.
I think I've mentioned my difficulty with rejection.... I know I'm being overly sensitive, but I'm still really hurt over it.
So I found myself a masseuse and scheduled a massage for tomorrow. I've never had one before, but I am so upset and I just want some sort of healing contact where I won't have to talk about why I'm upset.
Morgen
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