Posted by Tabitha on February 27, 2003, at 13:53:35
In reply to Re: Weird therapy session, posted by Cecilia on February 27, 2003, at 2:13:42
Wow, how awful. I had a bad therapy termination once, but it had only been a few months. I know bad breakups can linger, I'm still stuck on one particular friend I lost back around 97.
This thing with my therapist seems to have come out of nowhere. She's the totally non-revealing type, so I've never had to respond to her feelings at all. How am I supposed to know where she's coming from at all, when I have no sense of her personality whatsoever? So where do I put my trust? On a non-person? I trust that she'll show up for sessions, and respond in a consistent way, but what do I really know of her motivations? Nothing. How are we supposed to really trust someone we don't know? Isn't that a little unreasonable?
My other gripe that started this... when I report events with other people, she usually assumes my judgement is wrong, and she puts a happier face on it. Often (always?) it turns out my judgement was correct. I'm tired of having her always assume she knows better, even though I'm the one with the firsthand experience. Then I have to deal with whatever was bothering me about the relationship twice (my original perception, then I try to believe it's all really OK based on her perception, then it turns out my perception was correct, so I get let down twice).
I think my therapist is just tired of me and I don't blame her. I'm tired of her too. Oh, the blasphemy. It feels like I'm off secretly admitting I want to divorce my spouse.
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