Posted by WorryGirl on October 16, 2002, at 14:17:21
I am new to this web-site and have enjoyed reading the postings - it's been very insightful.
I saw a therapist for a few months, but recently stopped because nothing has improved. I was diagnosed with general anxiety disorder.
I am a very intense person who analyzes everything to death! I tend to worry about potential disasters that could happen, partly because before I worried so much, many bad things were continuously happening.
A major problem is that I do not come across well to others. Sometimes I do come across fine, but the more people get to know me the more distant they become, and they gradually back off.
Sometimes it's as though people take one look at me and seem to read me as a "loser". On more than one occasion I have entered a new situation where I felt so alone and ostracized because when I tried to be friendly I was rebuffed and ignored. It hurts!
Sometime I know it's because I talk too much, which I tend to do when I'm nervous. But I never really say anything "wrong" or "bad"; I guess it's just the subconscious signals that I'm sending.
Other times I talk very little but people are not seeming to find me worthy of their time or interest even when if I attempt to ask them questions about themselves.
I am starting to feel so defective that it is difficult to be in any interpersonal situation because I'm so afraid of saying and/or doing the wrong thing.
My husband and the few friends I have (who unfortunately do not live close) are supportive and say that I am fine the way I am, and don't need medication, just more friends.
I feel like it's a catch 22 situation.
If I didn't feel so socially isolated and alone, I would be an extremely happy person. I am married (my husband travels a lot) with two very small children, and I stay at home.
Should I be medicated? I would rather not be medicated. Would group therapy of some kind benefit me? Has anyone else ever felt this way?
ANY advice, comments or suggestions would be most appreciated.
poster:WorryGirl
thread:1309
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