Posted by michaelb on August 12, 2002, at 11:36:46
need some answers bad. For several years I have had depression but never recognized or did anything about it. I would have suicidal thoughts almost everyday. I was having a problem at home and wanted my wife and I see a counsoler but she would have nothing to do with it and said it's my problem deal with it. The problem was her lack of emostions and affection to me. So in January I met someone on line and left and moved her in with me only to find I never could get into the relationship because I loved my wife. After the first week of being away from home I tried to kill myself and was hospitolized. After being released I went back to the girlfriend and tried to make thing work with her but couldn't because of my feelings for my wife. I tried to leave again but was always afraid of being rejected (my wife was always writing me to come back). I finally left the girlfriend and went back to my wife. While back in the house my wife keep asking me questions and thinks I was in love with the other woman because I just jumped into another relationship and sex so fast. I'm out of the house again while my wife tries to deal with her emotions.
My questions are:
1) Could the depression cause me to act so irrationally? I have never done anything like this before and I look back now and say how could I have done this? Is it caused from the depression?
2) I somehow have forgotten everything (99%) of what happen while I was with the girlfriend.
Can't even remember what she looked like. (I guess I really don't want to remember either). How could this happen?I'm on Wellbutrin now, it help a little but still very depressed.
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