Posted by alexandra_k on January 27, 2019, at 17:36:43
In reply to Re: clash, posted by alexandra_k on January 27, 2019, at 17:18:07
minimise time spent.
which is, of course, why genuine and genuinely caring people are desperate to get the kids they love expediated out and away as quickly as possible.
for the opportunity of a better life.
and often more particularly so when their kids are sensitive and trusting and kind and so on.
i really hope things come through for me.
i do not want my lifes contribution in this hell-hole to be losing international accreditation for universities and medical schools.
wanangas all around.kamakaze...
when there is no other way out.
some people internalise (suicide) and other externalise.
i see.
i suppose i wouldn't have looked into the US system if it wasn't for all that.
my biggest problem is in trusting people and other people seeing that i'm trusting and seeing that they can lie to me and bully and manipulate me by suggesting / insinuating / outright accusing me of being a nasty / bad / unthinking person. I need to remember that it's a variable behavior thing they are doing from panic / fear and any rise at all is a reinforcer for them. there's often very little intent. rationality.
i see why someone was obsessed with zombies...
consciousness... morality...
some of the bigger / more foundational / fundamental things... when you start to apprehend them they start to see linked. and when people are unable to apprehend one... they seem to be unable to apprehend another... the questions... trying to have a tractable methodology... i don't know... this doesn't make much sense.
anyway...
tidying things up... a few days... then it will be done.
i feel like... feeling upset / scared or whatever would be a victory for them. they want me to feel these ways. that's often how they feel. they can't hendle it very well. they want to induce it in me and see how i handle it and maybe they can learn from that / discover a better way.
my way is to not allow the feelings to get a grip of me, in the first place.
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most of the advice on how to finish a thesis / disseratation is precisely opposite and upside down and back to front and so on. they go on about how what you need is social supports and so on. but the only people who will want to 'support' you if you aren't working to time is the vultures attracted to the carrion.
what you need to do really is get the hell away from the other people who are only likely to be dragging you down...
minimise time spent.
sure, mutually beneficial collabotarive... but you drag that up from someone who decides to drag their heels... put a bunch of people who can't write together to write and likely they'll conjure up 2x the excuses and the excuses will multiply so more like 3x the excuses for even less work.
the recipe for 10+ years...
anyway... it is done.
i am learning the puine salvage pathway. because when i learn a bit it is like 'yay, i've learned it, i've done something productive'.
make the concrete changes...
get it done.
i did my work in the face of nobody else doing theirs. nobody else, at all. not a single person in the university did what the calendar said they should. not a single one.
(except library staff and one guy over in comp sci went out of his way to offer LaTeX support)
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