Posted by Dinah on March 12, 2006, at 10:06:24
I've always gotten through my deadlines at work with a constant low flow of biggie Dr. Pepper. I gave that up a year or two ago. But I do eat more when I have to work more. It's the only way for me to put in long hours. I'm not talking exceptionally long here - eight hours, say.
But I haven't been able to work more than six or seven lately without crashing. And brilliant me finally decided to take my bloog sugars to find that they're not astronomical but they are above target. 225 before bed last night and 126 this morning.
Which may have something to do with it being so hard to work. But on the other hand if I keep the blood sugars under tight control with diet, I won't be able to work either.
I'm just complaining, not looking for answers. I'm so angry with my body. I'm not overly happy with my husband who said that while diabetes may not be a condition covered by disability, it would be if they used me as an example.
I'm so dag-blained tired. So tired that it hurts so.
I'm letting everyone down. Family, work. I'm afraid I'll lose my medical benefits if I can't pull myself together at work.
I posted this at Health, because it's related to health. But I'm not really looking for answers. I know there are none. Doing what I am supposed to do leaves me unproductive. Doing what worked for me before leaves me unproductive.
poster:Dinah
thread:619294
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/health/20060202/msgs/619294.html