Posted by kerria on August 16, 2005, at 10:22:55
In reply to Re: nerve block didn't work and damaged my nerves:( » kerria, posted by ed_uk on August 16, 2005, at 7:16:23
Hi.
The dr switched me from oxycontin to morphine - he made comments like "I don't want to treat you because of botched therapy" - as if i had psychological pain and because therapy didn't work i needed pain medicine.
The dr also said, "I'm afraid of losing my license because of prescribing"- "you don't have a diagnosis." "You never have drs send reports to me" AND I ALWAYS DID. When i remind him he acts like i'm not telling the truth.i guess that morphine is way more abused ? i don't know why he switched me. At the same time he told me he wouldn't prescribe to me anymore. i don't even know why i should go today- i never want him to do surgery on me again. i'm out of medicine and have to beg him to not have me live in torture until i find someone else, that's why i'm seeing him.
i called the offices again last week and saw two more gyn drs with even more information of their exams. They referred me to still more drs. i've seen four this year already.
i haven't spoken to him yet. i didn't return his call after the surgery because it was such a nightmare after having it without sedation unexpectedly. When the pain subsided for a few days i thought that it was gone forever and hoped i could just get off of medicine myself and never see or talk to him again.
i have an appt today . i HATE going there. i'm in so much pain. tears.
The pple in the office and he always treat me so terribly. They ask me to "come in at 1:00 for a 1:30 appt" on the phone reminder and make me sit there until every last patient that comes in after me is seen - i waited almost three hours last time. It HURTS so much to sit also so i have to stand up when the pain gets unbearable .i wish i had another dr that could treat me.
i'm so worried that i can't control my parts - that i'll end up doing something like screaming at him and everyone there because i'm in so much pain and my parts hate how unfairly he treats me.
i don't think i can manage to stay in a sane part anymore.It's so unfair to me.
Being in pain makes therapy impossible. i can't communicate with parts - T is trying to help but it's too hard when i'm in pain or worrying about being treated all the time. i have a therapy appt also later- if they ever let me out on time at the pain management drs. All i do is cry about how much it hurts in therapy. T can't help.Thanks for listening.
take care,
kerria
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