Posted by Karen_kay on February 22, 2004, at 15:14:29
In reply to It does seem to be a struggle, posted by Jai Narayan on February 21, 2004, at 16:20:15
I know all about it... In high school, I was the "Jolly Fat Girl" Once I got on my own, I lost weight and when I saw those people again they were surpirsed at how good I looked. It's a constant struggle. And my mom is quick to point out, "Are your meds making you gain weight? Your face looks like it's breaking out, ect ect ect" And my friends are honest, a bit too honest I think.
But, I know I'm beautiful. If I gain 20 lbs (which is common for me. My weight changes from month to month.) then it's ok because I finally have a butt. Or that's what I try to tell myself. I keep pictures of my sister in the fridge so I won't eat. And I keep my "Fat Pictures" as reminders of what I WILL NOT BECOME AGAIN!!! And I don't grocery shop. My usual meal is plain pasta, no sauce. If I don't lose weight soon, I'll do the "Rice Diet." So what if I passed out before... I don't care!!! I'll starve before I get much fatter..
Sorry,, this isn't very supportive. Or maybe it is. Maybe you can see how distorted my thoughts are and catch some of yours? I don't know.. Wish I did. Maybe I'll marry a plastic surgeon one day??? And Make Myself Perfect that way... (Sounds stupid, but I think it,,,)
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