Posted by Katt on February 20, 2004, at 17:51:11
i've gotten stuck wheeling my self around in a scooter for the past two months and have spent most of my waking life in bed for the past four months. i've noticed the blubber starting to form, but told myself to wait until i felt better before really freaking out so that i could work out again.
BUT!!!!!! then i overheard my sister and mother having this stupid conversation about how they would never "say" anything and "did you notice...?" let me finish...that she has gained weight!!!!!! then i confronted them about what i overheard. two different stories, meaning it was one BIG lie. finally the SIS fessed up and admitted to their conversation. she said, oh, but you filled in that outfit so nicely!!! WTF??? filled in an outfit nicely?? that means, look beee-otch, you are fat, and we talking about you -- don't committ suicide yet. wait until i really piss you off. but nothing pisses me off like gaining weight. trouble is, i can't seem to eat as little as i used to, and i am freakin' ballooning!!! i know, i know, dont let the perspective of others determine how you feel, blah blah blah. but we are nothing more than the perspective of others. for once in my life, i was the skinny one. now i am becoming the fat one again. i dont even want to go see them anymore. i just want to wallow in my fat despair. yuk, i am so disgusting, it pisses me off. i am nasty lookin -- so bad i want to die. FAT FAT FAT OBESE pig.
poster:Katt
thread:316178
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