Posted by Spriggy on February 18, 2005, at 12:46:20
In reply to Re: Lou's response to Buckeye Fan's post-doyumen, posted by Greenhornet on February 18, 2005, at 11:43:38
I am going through this very question myself right now. Is this spiritual warfare? Or is this a real, chemical/physical problem in my body?I don't know. I feel more confused than ever.
I know the Word of God says we have authority given to us (by Jesus) over the principalities of this world. So if this were simply an attack of satan to oppress me, if I rebuke Him and plead the blood of Jesus, is he not required to leave me alone?
And if I do that, and this oppressive, darkness/confusion remains, what does that mean?
Does it mean this is physical? Does it mean I don't have enough faith to "believe" myself well? Does that mean I'm defeated.
I don't know anymore. I know I love God with everything I have within me. I've never cried out to Him more or sought His direction more than I have through this horrible mental torment.
And yet, I am still here. This pit is just as dark and I feel so hopeless.
I know my God is big enough to deliver me from this.. so why is He chosing not to? Maybe He is refining me through this, maybe I need to experience this so I can have compassion for other's in this shape.
I don't know.
All I do know is that God is still God despite the pain I'm going through. This heartache does not change the core of who God is.
He is loving, good, all powerful, and somehow, I believe He will eventually deliver me from this. Whether it's through His supernatural healing hand or His sustaining Hand. I just have to trust Him.
poster:Spriggy
thread:459211
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