Posted by TF on January 1, 2004, at 7:47:32
In reply to Re: Why Live?, posted by Pathur on December 31, 2003, at 8:24:47
I can see what you all mean by that. I always notice providence in the many things that happen to me. For instane, maybe taking away the definition of my thoughts is God's way of dealing with the panic/anxiety disorder that's kept me out of a job for so long (and caused trouble when I am employed). It's just scary to deal with life without clearly defined thoughts. Sure, I can write pretty decently without the middle man in my head, but it's still not the same.
It's scary to deal with life without something you've become dependant on for so many things, not to mention all of the looks I get from people who now think I'm stupid or retarded. That drives me nuts. If God wanted to get rid of my panic disorder, he should've made me less observant, instead of less smart. Now I can observe things, but misinterpret them to boot. That it's God's will makes alot less sense when I look at it that way. That's ok I guess, it must be for someone else's benefit that I lose my mind.
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