Posted by rayww on September 3, 2003, at 10:54:58
In reply to Re: miracle healing » rayww, posted by habbyshabit on September 2, 2003, at 22:57:50
Enjoyed your response Habby>
> ~Spiritually speaking-I have to wonder if I found myself in a hypo or florid manic episode, would I suddenly be all spiritual and "in touch" with god again. Right now, in a normal mode, it seems unlikely, since the change I've just gone through seems so real and solid. A lot of my spirituality seemed to be "given" to me in pre-psychotic states. I hope to not have a mania to find out! I really do not enjoy mania or the aftermath, the crash. I can't help but wonder how many years off my life each manic episode takes.ANd I wonder too. In reality, "No man can serve two masters•: for either he will hate the one, and love the other; or else he will hold to the one, and despise the other. Ye cannot serve God and mammon."
I have always been the way I am spiritually, and have enjoyed Sunday discussions of all topics. In my manic spirituality I would feel more inclined to dominate the discussions, and inspired to say certain things, but as soon as I went home I would wonder where that "off the wall" comment came from and then be really embarrassed for saying it. My adult kids noticed and began dreading my participation. What can I say? I had to listen to them and seek help. Now I am very quiet, and only comment when I have a witness that what I am going to say is something that needs to be heard or discussed. It's working.
Spirituality that's in tune with the right source will settle relatively well. Spirituality that's "off-the-wall" will bounce out and be lost. You just have to trust your deepest feelings.
Eventually (as the scripture says) you will lean more to the one side than the other. It is your decision. Which do you want to hang onto? If Arlon is important to you, cling to that. Once you get a taste of true light, you will not be able to abide darkness. This is your life, and you are the only one who can figure it out. I feel you are on the right track.
Bipolar swings do get in the way, but I believe God lends an extra helping hand during those times if we look to the source with faith, believing. Pay attention to your moods and swings, learn to recognize when you are off the wall. Identify what it is you define as normal for you. For me, normal is not that sick and driven feeling, when I feel so compelled to do things that I know aren't right. It's tough.
We aren't accountable for things we do in that state,(to a point) but we are accountable for the consequenses and for the lingering habits formed and end result of ruined relationships. Maybe that's why we are given "big" spirituality in those times of severity. It helps get us through.
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