Posted by Tabitha on August 13, 2003, at 1:47:26
In reply to Re: Temmie/ or anyone - about channeling, posted by habbyshabit on August 12, 2003, at 22:41:04
Thanks for your reply. I almost hate to tax you by posting to you again.. so please don't feel obligated to answer if you were just checking in briefly. Take care of yourself!
I had a sudden resurgence of interest in spiritual matters, also linked to a period of high mood. I read this whole board over several days, after not having been here for a long long time. I was also doing a lot of web-surfing, mainly on the beliefnet site (the one with the quiz). Then I got scared of it all, and became obsessed with mundane concerns (mainly money). It's hard for me to allow myself to have the interest in spiritual things. I don't quite understand my resistance-- it's like I'm just not allowed to have non-rational beliefs and seek joyful experiences. Part of my inner critical parent I'm sure.
I'm trying to re-integrate my interest. I'm planning to attend a course in miracles group Wednesday night. There must be a way to have sanity and spirituality at the same time-- obviously there is, since I don't believe all the spiritual leaders are suffering brain chemistry oddities (but maybe some of them are). So maybe when I'm in the high moods, I'll be interested in channeling and more 'out there' types of experiences, and when I'm in the more normal moods, I'll just be interested in more ordinary daily things like prayer and meditation. Hey, that sounds hopeful, doesn't it?
Take care of yourself. I read your reply to stjames below-- I hope you don't berate yourself for offering Arlon, then not being able to follow through right away. It must take an enormous amount of energy to open yourself to Arlon. I especially hope you don't feel you have to prove anything to anyone who might be skeptical.
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