Posted by Temmie on August 10, 2003, at 19:14:21
In reply to Re: Working my Program, posted by rayww on August 10, 2003, at 18:16:50
Thank you, Ray, it's Temmie here, not Tabitha (another beautiful soul). I want to thank you for writing .... It is so very helpful to have the support I've found here. I went to a meeting tonight .... I'm really working it -- in the sense of knowing I can control parts of my life, and at this point -- if that's just getting up and getting to a meeting, good.
I feel pretty sad that I've lost Mercury and probably others, who couldn't abide the great delays in coming my to awakening here ....
I called the friend Paul is staying with in NY on my way home and had a big discussion about his "using" again. Probably crack. Bottom line -- he's sick, and I'm sick for hanging on to him. I've simply got to cut loose -- which is what Mercury and others advised so long ago. Actually, it's only been days ... perhaps now weeks .... Whatever! I feel I'm progressing as fast as I can.
I really liked the piece I read today about being an emotional drunk. It helped me understand how and why I'd let this relationship make me feel my life had become so unmanageable ....
I am also grateful, of course, for Jesus Christ -- and anything that I do which helps me feel more open to His boundness compassion, wisdom and love. You might enjoy this book I keep referring to ("The Jesus I Never Knew") and/or perhaps you're more into things such as "The Urantia Book." Whatever. I'm just glad I've got powerful, loving, boundless-in-their-love beings to call upon -- and that includes the ministrations of Manjushri who has surely been kept busy with my recent pleas for help. (And who has also benefitted me in feeling more centered and at-peace.)
Let me be open, is all I ask. Let me be open to knowing and serving God, and putting God first, that the rest of my life might fall into place as it should.
I have a beautiful prayer I'll send at some point that helps with this wish ....
For now -- I am rambling, I know -- but rambling with great thanks for you (!!!), for your caring, your help, your advice, insights and assistance -- for your encouragement to carry on -- and the encouragement to turn inward.
Many blessings to you, the beans, peas, and other glorious greens of your summer bounty that have kept you balanced, whole and sane -- and which have also permitted you to be so giving and encouraging to others during troubled times. Temmie
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