Posted by Mercury on July 21, 2003, at 21:19:56
In reply to Re: Prescription Enlightenment, posted by Mercury on July 12, 2003, at 22:02:44
Day 25 on Lex. Today I spent half the day in therapy. I saw my psychiatrist, and went to 2 AA meetings. I've not had a drink now in 2 weeks. Overall I feel pretty good, yet there's still a strange feeling that something about me is a bit out of wack. I feel a bit manic. Like when your driving a car with that's out of alignment, as long as you hold onto the wheel you go straight. Let go and...well you know. I still have that strange lingering sleepiness all day long. I find that a mid-day nap when I can take one seems to be a healthy thing. At the shrinks office I was suprised by some of the things I admitted to him. Shocked actually. The 45 minutes seemed like 10. At my AA meetings I've finally begun to share my experiences and I am finding that I had really done a good job in my life building up this facade of a person. But as I begin to strip away my prideful arrogance, I'm not liking what I am finding underneath. I convinced myself that I was smarter than everyone else, better looking, more creative, more talented...it went on and on. But its all just a bunch of bull. I've made a mess of my life. I've been selfish, stubborn, self-centered and arrogant beyond measure.
I have a lot of work to do.
Mercury
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