Posted by alexandra_k on October 20, 2018, at 21:30:18
In reply to Re: This website is full of copyright infringements, posted by alexandra_k on October 20, 2018, at 20:43:00
I guess it's because they want to see me grovel / be supplicant.
They want to see me afraid. Seeking reassurance from them. Being all like 'oh my god I'm so concerned, if I don't finish my thesis whatever will happen to me in life?'
Camus. The trial. How he was supposed to present to the jury.
Only...
I guess I thought they were professional. Upstanding. Trustworthy. Worthy of respect because of how they conducted themselves. Honest. Fairminded. Or, if not entirely, at least trying to be.
If an academic can't give an essay a fair mark then I don't want to have anything to do with that academic. If that academic thinks that an appropriate use of their power is to use a grade as a 'communication' and more particularly to fail the people they like the most / want to see grovel to them the most that's a pretty f*ck*ng scary person to keep the hell away from to my mind.
It's like the kid who pulls the other kids hair... Except we aren't three anymore and the kid pulling the hair isn't another kid, at all, it's the f*ck*ng grown-up in charge of the f*ck*ng situation.
See... When they behave like that I can't respect them anymore.
I guess I was supposed to be motivated to just knuckle down and get things done. I don't know why I got it into my head that people would try and help you complete a PhD -- not intentionally obstruct you from doing that / intentionally hide / refrain from mentioning important bits of information to you. I guess that's why you are supposed to grovel and be supplicant...
Only...
Self-Respect.
Again... People are telling me they were waiting for me to stand up for myself... I'm the person who refused to be kept for 1 year in 'frictional unemployment' just so they could see me bow and scrape and cook and clean their households... Social contact for them on demand...
Why would I want to join them? When they behave like that?
If they want me to stick around / help them: They need to treat me better.
Uh... Do unto others???
I guess it must be really really really really really f*ck*ng fun for them to be surrounded by lackeys.
Sigh.
Awful people.
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