Posted by LlurpsieBlossom on December 9, 2006, at 21:24:10
In reply to I'd like to point out, posted by Honore on December 9, 2006, at 16:38:42
I am in grief.
I am very sad.
I am feeling anxious, well to the extent that my current medication allows it.
I wish Babble weren't the source of that pain, but I cannot deny it is.
I was trying to fix babble, because babble hurt me.
And I thought I'd start simple.
crushed. so i give up. no fixing. no tinkering. No more commentary.
What's the use? I don't get blocked. I'm rarely in danger of incivility. Why should I bother? babble's safe for me, or unsafe or whatever. who cares?
Maybe, Honore, the reason why things seem to spiral out of control here is because this board is not designed to provide support. It sure would be nice if we could have a forum to provide support to our Administrators. I would have a lot to say. Or a way of feeling like we were actually engaging in a collaboration with our Administrators. That is not the case. Good collaborators do not ignore well-intentioned suggestions. Good collaborators try to explain why something will work and why something won't work. Instead, I often feel like a sniveling peon, finding my ideas dismissed or ignored as easily as one would wipe crumbs from a table.
I'm abandoning my misconception of Dr. Bob's project being a collaborative enterprise between "contributors" and "administrators".
Sorry, my role here is to fill up vanilla pages with evidence of my transforming insanity.
My role here is to BABBLE.
To talk rapidly or continuously in a foolish, excited, or incomprehensible way
To utter something rapidly and incoherently
To reveal something secret or confidential by talking impulsively or carelessly
To make the continuous murmuring sound of water flowing over stones.
[from Oxford American Dictionaries]
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