Posted by verne on July 7, 2006, at 11:44:11 [reposted on July 7, 2006, at 13:15:17 | original URL]
In reply to An apology, explaination, and *child abuse trigger, posted by happyflower on July 6, 2006, at 13:43:04
Happyflower,
I didn't think your post about anti-social personality disorder offensive. Perhaps you could have chosen your words more carefully but it was obvious your intentions were good. You were merely equating anti-social with negative behavior - and the last time I checked there's still nothing positive or healthy about being anti-social.
Besides, one misstep, one wrong word, should truly be *excused* here at Babble. You didn't deserve to be blindsided with the overly indignant, disingenuous, falsely polite, and downright pissy: "Excuse Me" post. You were ambushed.
I, too, experienced torture at the hands of my mother until I was finally placed in foster care at the age of 5. I started self-injuring (cutting) in my early twenties - usually after anything good happened in my life. One pdoc described my condition with the words "constant emotional pain". I grew out of SI'ing in my 30's but still struggle with most of the other borderline traits, anxiety, PTSD, and atypical depression. I bring this up because I think I can relate to what you're going through.
I saw "Sybil" for the very first time just last year and it really touched me. I was shook up and felt validated at the same time. My mother used some of the same techniques employed by Sybil's mother. I was so traumatized I nearly flunked the first grade and my foster parents thought I was autistic. I was suicidal by the age of 12.
If you haven't seen Sybil I'm not sure I can recommend it. More than a movie about multiple personality disorder, the film explores Sybil's childhood abuse at the hands of her sadistic, and disturbed, mother. I plan to see it again. (a note about this film. There are a couple versions; later copies omit a couple vital scenes. I think the WE channel shows the uncut version)
Take heart in knowing you are a survivor and breaking the pattern of abuse. I think you're in a heroic struggle. Hang in there.
Verne (the frequent vacactioner)
PS: I hate to take away any suspense but I know I'll be blocked for this post. I still think it's a great site for med issues and will continue to visit.
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