Posted by 5 on March 2, 2006, at 22:24:03
In reply to Re: Ethics, posted by 5 on March 2, 2006, at 22:03:06
Because I've always tried to be charitable to him
Like he has asked us to do
And I don't see him being charitable to meAnd every now and then people say I don't get treated as harshly as other people on the boards
They say I get preferential treatmentAnd those sort of accusations are hard for me (and yes I see them as accusations)
Because I've had preferential treatment before
And it was abuse
It was
And it is hard for meBut I've thought hard about it
Whether I do get preferential treatment
whether I have gotten preferential treatment
And my thought was that Dr Bob was more inclined to think of my posts charitably because I extend that courtesy to him
I have tried to internalise the civility rules
To take them on board
To make sense of them
To employ them in my life
Not just at the level of posting but at teh level of thought and conceptualisationAnd that is why he might be more inclined to think of what I say with a little charity
That made sense to me.
Around Larry's block
(I'm sorry if this is bringing up hurts for people)
I predicted admin action.
And people did point out how that could sound...
And nothing was said...
And so the admin action happened.
And I tried to make sense of the block
To think of it charitably
To help other people see that
To help other people understand whyI never did agree with the 6 weeks...
I've had issue with the LENGTH of blocks
But not really with the blocks.And so I did that...
I wasn't asked to.
But I did.And then the block gets reduced 'with love'
Whatever that means
Whatever that means for the original reasons for the block
I don't really know what sense to make of that...
But there it is.
And I am glad Larry is back with us
And I am glad he didn't end up with 6 weeks because I think that was too much.
Far too much.
I'm glad it was reduced but I'm not sure I see the sense...
Why was Larry's block reduced while other peoples blocks have not been.Why charity for Larry?
I don't understand.
Maybe... It is about teh majority. I mean... If the boards are about the good of the group then what the majority wants...
People went from hating to loving Dr Bob.
Once the block was reduced.
I continued to be an object of derision.
Thats okay. he didn't ask me to come to his defence.
But I continued to be an object of derision.Outliers...
Just aren't in the interests of the group.
But when it comes to what Iran wants (what the citizens in Iran wants)
Well...
That is nothing when compared to the interests of the US.
I'm an outlier.
Always have been.
Always will be.
Some people find that invaluable...
But I piss off the majority that is true.
But that is me.
I thought that was okay.
I thought I was okay here.
But I am not.
because those last two blocks...
Who am I kidding...
All my blocks.I know she didn't see it this way...
But my apology to crazy t was genuine
I was really very upset with myself over that
I did wrong :-(
I hurt her very much and that wasn't my intention.
But I don't even have teh opportunity to put that right
To make that up to her
To try to make that up to her.And that doesn't sit well with me.
Doc John Blocked me for 4 weeks.
I didnt' care because IMO he is crazy anyways
Inconsistent
Says things he regrets (or jolly well should) lol.
Reacts rather than responds
he is a lot like me lol.
But Dr Bob... I expected more.I tried not to idealise him...
But there it is.There it is.
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