Posted by SLS on January 11, 2023, at 19:51:51
In reply to Re: I apologize for the things I wrote while hypomanic » SLS, posted by Jay2112 on January 10, 2023, at 18:27:28
Hi, Jay.
> > I apologize for my manner of writing beginning a few weeks ago. My guess is that it was precipitated by a reduction in the dosage of nortriptyline. It was a sort of drug-discontinuation rebound improvement which left me in a state resembling hypomania. It might very well have been hypomania. I can't be sure. The last time that a drug-induced hypomania emerged in me was in 1995.
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> > - Scott
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> Scott, all's that matters is that you are safe, and I really hope feeling better. I apologize for my inferring anything, and hope I didn't do or say anything wrong or stupid.
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> Jay :)You were right about my experiencing some sort of activation. Perhaps it was true hypomania. It doesn't really matter. I wrote what I wrote. I think I would have been more receptive to your observations were you to address your concerns directly to me rather than about me to the community.
There are worse things, of course. Watching people become their own worst enemies and preclude any kind of meaningful healing is one of them. I dont blame anyone for their desperation. How could I?
Does it make sense to reject psychiatry just because you havent responded to any of its treatments so far? Of course, it makes sense. However, even the purest of logic can yield gross inaccuracies. I understand how this can happen, but obstacles are obstacles. Continually changing the substances that one assaults their brain with is counterproductive - if not irreversibly damaging. I have been my own worst enemy, too. Too many times, I didn't adhere to a treatment protocol strictly enough so as to be able to evaluate its efficacy - information. There are treatments that I had to revisit because I didnt give them enough time to work the first time.
Precious time.
Although the posture I took when posting so many angry words was destructive, the content of what I wrote is no less true and applicable.I would love to be proven wrong. My ego can take it. I would love to watch people achieve remission using methods that I *currently* reject. I dont see how taking a combination of twenty or more herbs and natural substances can be so compelling if it doesnt work year after year while rejecting the use of psychiatric drugs in their entirety - those very same drugs that have allowed people to leave Psycho-Babble over the years to begin new lives. What happened with Deplin and SAMe? Sure, some people feel somewhat better at first, but how much better? Persistent remission?
"The brain determines the mind as the mind sculpts the brain."
With mood disorders, the brain is resistant to being sculpted by the mind. It can be very stubborn. In order to treat depression effectively, one must give any treatment enough time to begin sculpting the brain when the brain is incapable of sculpting itself.I was treatment resistant between the years 1982-2000. In what ways was I different from anyone else on Psycho-Babble in 2019? How did it happen that I became different?
Nardil
Nortriptyline
Lamictal
LithiumNo herbs. No nootropics. No loading up on biological substances that occur endogenously. No mega-dosing vitamins. No micro-dosing drugs. I tried these things myself out of desperation. Who wouldnt after so many years? Ultimately, it was unnatural substances that brought me to remission and allowed me to begin putting together a life worth living.
Right now, I am engaged to be married and planning to move to another state.
N=1Of course, mine is just one anecdote.
It looks like I triggered an exodus. It's a terrible irony.
- Scott
Some see things as they are and ask why.
I dream of things that never were and ask why not.The only thing necessary for the triumph of evil is that good men do nothing.
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