Posted by undopaminergic on June 22, 2020, at 3:13:25
In reply to Re: My experience with Nardil, posted by Lamdage22 on June 22, 2020, at 1:21:26
> You sound like the person who can get this reaction. Doctors usually don't recommend this if psychosis was an issue in the past.
>I am actually quite resistant to psychosis. I was really doing "everything I could" to get psychosis the first time. I used stimulants (cocaine-like) intensively, mostly to stay awake, and I accumulated a sleep deficit, which in turn made me psychotic. Ironically, I didn't get auditory hallucinations until after I stopped the stimulant, but it makes sense, because I still couldn't sleep. Moreover, there was a trigger: my computer was broken into, so I got increasingly paranoid over security, and I was looking for viruses and trojans day and night.
I've had later episodes of even heavier use of stimulants, in which I stayed up for maybe a week at a time. That would drive almost anyone psychotic. But not me, probably because psychical self-healing after the first psychosis made me more resistant.
Later psychoses have just included delusions, no hallucinations. The inception of these delusions have been linked with mania, endogenous and drug-induced.
Actually, I'm liberal in accepting ideas as "delusions". A delusion does in fact *require* absolute conviction and is clung to despite all evidence against it. I have rarely had such delusions. Mere unscientific working hypotheses are not delusions; and it is this kind of ideas that are the most common in my case.
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