Posted by PeterMartin on December 24, 2016, at 1:34:43
Ever since Trump won the election my anxiety has been out of control. I figured it was a life event type thing where eventually it would subside and it kinda did. I was still depressed about the way I felt the world was going but the constant anxiety diminished - overall I wasn't nearly as good as before the election but I wasn't as bad as after.
However now that he is getting closer to taking office and tweeting things about nukes and destabilizing the world my mental health is again way out of control. I've had bad thoughts about not wanting to see the end of this story w/ this guy leading etc etc. My goal was to put it out of sight/out of mind but w/ the constant tweeting of crazy ideas I seem to get bombarded with stuff that triggers depression/anger and anxiety at random.
I'm currently taking Marplan 40mg (have been as high as 60 but get kinda spacey), Lamictal 200mg, Topamax 50mg, Seroquel 25 (sleep).
Since I'm taking Maplan it's making things difficult as far as trying other medications. The one I wanted to talk to my doctor about trying for anxiety that reviews seem to say can provide "contentment" is Trileptal (oxcarbazepine). But I dunno.....I'm really scared to come off this cocktail of medications that has worked for me since 2010.....all because of current events but I jsut can't get over it. It's like I have OCD to the max but when I try to tell myself let it go there's nothign I can do it's no big deal I realize it is a big deal....ugh
I really wish there was a way to go into a medically induced coma for 4, 8, or however many years. I'm seriously freaking (and I'm not at risk of deportation/etc).
Does nayone have any suggestions? Is it worth washingout off the Marplan to try Trilepta + an SSRI? Are there any other contentment / "Who gives a sh*t" pills that'll help me just let this go?
I'm not fond of benzos so I don't think I'd go that route even if my doc thought it'd be helpful....
Please don't attack me if my feelings are different than yours. I've gotten enough mockery for being scared already and that just makes things more difficult. I'm sorry if this post offends anyone :( My next doc apt is just after the New Year so I hope to have a plan when I talk to my doc.....last I saw him I felt pretty much the same way but we both shrugged our shoulders since I'm on Marplan and opted to stay where wew are....
Thanks.
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