Posted by B2chica on March 29, 2016, at 14:32:05
In reply to Re: amitriptyline and apathy?, posted by linkadge on March 28, 2016, at 17:42:03
i do notice that it doesnt 'drop me' like it did the first few days. it takes a while before i get tired, and i think it has more to do with the other sleep meds that the amitrip now.
but i just cant get over this absolute dread at the thought of having to do anything during the day. go outside? forget it, get something to eat? not that hungry anyway, bathroom? how bad do i really have to go and can it wait. let alone the thought of having to do a chore around the house and its looking pretty shabby around here. its really overwhelming or maybe perplexing or confusing is a better word, overwhelming is too emotional of a word.now that i say it, i think it is actually both the action of getting up to clean, but also the brain power it takes to think of where the cleaners are, where to organize things, putting it all back..etc. that is exhausting. maybe even more the latter.
the hours go by like days. although most of me is thankful i'm no longer in that horrid state i was in just over a week ago, i dont really even feel like i'm ...living. i feel very 'removed' from everything.
i do hope this is part of depression and not an unavoidable side effect of the med...
"What is madness, but nobility of soul at odds with circumstance.
The day is on Fire, and i know the purity of pure despair."
Theodore Roethke
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