Posted by B2chica on February 16, 2016, at 18:36:12
In reply to Re: pdoc...hands in air. now what » B2chica, posted by SLS on February 16, 2016, at 1:26:13
to this day they never really told me exactly what happened. but i had just started the med that morning, our group was allowed outside for 15min (this was over 10 years ago we'd go out to smoke). then right when we came in i think 9am we had a group session. i was sitting at the table when everything started buzzing i was looking at a gal across from me trying to get her attention, i realized i coudlnt talk, i tried to move my left arm and it started to posture i let out a sort of gutteral sound (as i was trying to scream). the nurse finally came over and helped me up i took about three dragged steps and lost the ability to walk so another nurse came and the two of them carried me to my bed (i remember tyring to tell them my head felt like it was on fire, i tried like hell to say the one word 'hot' but couldnt get it out)
They put me in the bed and raised the foot of it. Later the nurse said something about blood pressure plummeting. but i also remember the nurses and doctors talking while i was in the room, she kept asking why my eyes were 'doing that'... but i dont know what she meant.
anyway, the whole while i am totally competent mentally but couldnt move and couldnt utter a single word. that lasted until about 7 or 8 that night, maybe later im not really sure.
After all that, i did stay on the med as i figured i made it thoughtthat ordeal and it ended up cycling me about every two-three days.
Yes, it sucks. Generics and i dont play well together. i think i would be willing to try another generic of it though beacuse i do respond differently to differnt generics.
Candor, well...i'm over 40 and feel quite comfortable laying it all out here. one advantage of getting older.
Geodon, i started at 80 and it didht do much for my depression or anxiety, went up to 160 (double the dose) and within 3 days i was severely suicidal, more than i had been in a while.
i dont think any have ever mentioned schizoaffective. i think mostly for two reasons, i dont tend to have hallucinations so much as illusions. and either halluc or illusion i am aware that they are such, so part of me stays in 'realiy' .
"What is madness, but nobility of soul at odds with circumstance.
The day is on Fire, and i know the purity of pure despair."
Theodore Roethke
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